It came as quite a shock to me 12 years ago when my girlfriend told me that she was pregnant. We had in truth been trying for a baby after she had her first miscarriage, but I never thought it would happen so soon. I am not really sure why it’s crazy, I know. I have to admit that I was quite scared at first but now feel very lucky and he has truly changed my life in a positive way.
A couple weeks before my son was born, The Boys and I decided to get together and have a guy’s night and chill out like old time sake. It was like one last night out of freedom before being thrust into parenthood. This whole night I remember thinking, I will miss this. For some reason I actually thought that becoming a father would end any social life that I had.
The feeling of emotion and happiness when I first set eyes on and held my son is very hard to describe. He was so small and light. He was perfect. I wouldn’t let him out of my sight. I even went back to the nursery when the nurses took him out to give him his first bath. My girlfriend was catching up on her rest so I was left in the room on my own, holding my little man. I could not stop staring at him, he was so perfect. Right then I knew I was the luckiest man alive.
My whole attitude to life has now changed; in the past socializing with my friends was a big part of my life. Now I would rather be home with my kids any day! You might think I am crazy or boring but when I am out I miss my kids so much, I can’t really enjoy myself.
Now that he is getting older he is the first one to wake up and walks into our room and says, Good morning dad! I wake up and there in front of me is my son with a beaming smile on his face. Then soon to follow are my 2 little girls. Who are truly “daddy’s Girls”.
I feel very sorry for people who are unable to have children and find it very hard to understand people who choose not to have any. I am a very proud parent and would do anything for my Kids. Even when they are naughty I find it hard to be angry at then for more than about two minutes. I have recently spent a few weeks out of state due to my job. It’s been hell! The whole time I am away all can think about is getting back to my 3 great kids.
I now have something to really live for and the future is really exciting. For any Man out there who is unsure about whether they want or should become a parent, I can honestly say that from a personal experience it has been amazing and is truly a blessing.